Consideration about love
Shepherd boy
“Let’s go to the field”
The older brother who visited after a long time
To me, my brother seemed a little sick.
At that time. My brother suddenly came when I was taking care of the sheep near my house.
I was very happy to see my brother after a long absence. Because I liked my brother.
My brother is about 19 or 20 years old, and I am about 16 or 17 years old.
My brother doesn’t live with us. My brother lived independently and away from home.
But sometimes he came to see me and he at home like this.
We go for a walk from our house to the field over the hill. I’ve loved walking with his brother like this since I was little. I’m walking a little in front, and my brother is walking a few steps behind.
The wind is a little chilly. The cold season is coming soon.
We are dressed in Knitted with goat wool. I’m a Genuine dough and have horizontal stripes on his arms and hem. My brother’s clothes are a little brown. My eyes are brilliant, his hair is short and wavy.
When I was little, I was always playing with his brother. But someday my brother was silent.
The sky is a little cloudy and grayish, with the sun sometimes peeking through the clouds.
We are climbing between the gentle hills of short dead grass and dry soil, with occasional innocent conversations.
At that time,
My brother hits my back of the head with a slightly larger stone at his feet.
“Ohh！!”
I have a severe pain and fall down. While my consciousness was stunned, my brother hit my head and face with stones over and over again.
My fresh blood splattered on my brother’s face.
I’m tired, and I’m out of breath.
My soul leaves my body.
I hurry up to God.
And I beg not to punish my brother.
I think so for some reason.
“Please, God. Don’t punish my brother. He’s confused. Maybe my brother doesn’t know what he’s doing. Please!”
I knew that my brother wanted to be loved more than anyone else. But he is always stubborn and can’t be honest with himself.
Somehow, I feel that my brother looks like I am now.
However, that wish is never answered.
My brother is crying and burying me in the soil. I’m digging the soil on the side of my body with stones and hands. My brother’s fingertips are torn, his nails are turned over and blood is bleeding badly. My brother barely dug up the soil enough to bury my body, held him in the hole I dug, put it back and buried me in the soil.
I’m looking at the whole scene from above.
My brother kept calling my name many times with a small voice.
My brother loved me. However, my brother didn’t understand that at that time. He couldn’t control his feelings, even though he didn’t know what his hatred was.
I hear The voice.
“Oh, Cain, you have to go in the field until you really know what you have done. Go. Walk on your feet. May you not be cursed in the human world. “
God marked my brother.
But it wasn’t stamped on his forehead. He received the seal of love.
God has nothing but love. Yes, it’s like thinking of a lost lamb.
My brother had no choice but to go to the wilderness. He wasn’t struck by what he did.
My brother’s heart is feeling lost and his body is about to tear. I find it painfully like what happened to me.
Then some time will pass.
I can see my brother.
I’m walking somewhere in the rough lands with the sheep I was taking care of.
It’s a very cold wind.
My brother’s hair is terribly messy, with a chin and a stiff beard on his mouth. My brother’s face is terribly tired and has deeply carved wrinkles on his face.
My brother always thinks like this.
“I loved my little brother. Why didn’t I notice that?”
And tears are always bleeding in my brother’s eyes.
People lose the most important things if they are not honest with their hearts.
I will destroy it myself.
There is no day when my brother doesn’t think about that.
My brother was not cursed by God.
My brother had a grudge against himself.
People are all in the grace that God has given them to realize their true self.
I think that’s what it means.
The mark means that it will not be forgotten. That is the grace of God.